Vanguard
He had received no answer from the woman. In a way Vanguard expected it. He had been... cruel to her, so she had no reason to hear her word. Still, listening to her he pondered. She was kind, courageous and had heart. He once too, could have proudly stated to have such things. But now, after pondering on what happened since that fight with Surien once more, pondering on his actions towards Mordred and his own words... he wasn't so sure.
He had always stood against injustice, against cruelty and against the unfairness of the world. But seeing . It was as if he wasn't the same person. It is true, he had failed due to his weakness. But his ideals were just, they were true. So why, why did he reject them so? Why did he feel such fury towards her? Was it due to envy, or due to his past shame? No, he was not furious. Had he been, he would have-
"No..."
But why? What was wrong of his logic, what did he not see? No matter how just, no matter how fair, one cannot uphold such things without strength. And yet, despite their gap in power, Mordred stood proud, facing odds that were impossible to her. She faced him as an equal, and probably would have to the bitter end. When confronted with such courage, was it truly just to shame it?
After such a display, could he call himself strong?
He had denied it, because he valued his pride. All do, no matter how much they would deny it. And yet, Vanguard was now doubting that pride of his. Was it pride, or arrogance?
He had made it his quest, his purpose, to save his comrades, to prevent such a tragedy from unfolding. Yet that woman, she talked of it as if it was but a natural occurrence, like rainfall. That was disgusting, that horror... that hell... it should never have been. It should not be. It would not.
But pondering about it, Vanguard realized that he may have pondered thousands of years in that mountain, but not once had he thought. Yes, after such a display, was he any different from the gods that had shamed and belittled him?
And so, for the first time since an eternity, Vanguard thought.
Maybe, just maybe, he was not as right as he believed.